I Wonder

A message to the love of my life

I always wonder why we're still together. I wonder why we fight and make up. I wonder why I kept my promise when it's meant to be broken.

I always wonder why I stayed when I get hurt all the time. I wonder why I forgive when the pain pierced badly. I wonder why I hold on to the love I once thought was a fairy tale.

The wondering just continued.

One day, I looked at myself in the mirror and continued to find the answer. I searched everywhere to find it, but I couldn't.

I cried very hard than you could ever imagine. I thought to myself, it's done, we're done. I thought of letting go many times, but I couldn't do it.

Then, I found the answer! Yes, it was there all along.

Because... I couldn't leave a man who made the woman in me, a mother in me and a wife in me today.

I guess time made me a strong believer of what God taught men.-- 1 Corinthians 13

"4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. 11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. 12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."

Those were the answers I was wanting to hear.

The answer was just because I love you.

Simply because, even though we fight we still make up. Even though I get hurt, I learn to forgive.

You taught me things I thought wouldn't matter at all, but they're the littlest of things that makes me love you even more. Because of you, I learned how to forgive, how to follow, how to listen, how to speak up, how to protect myself, how to enjoy life and how to wait.

I have a lot of dreams I wanted to build together with you. There are zillions of it and the reasons are beyond what the actual concept of the dreams are.

Oh, by the way, I guess I'll never stop wondering...

because until now, I have not found the real answer to why I love you.

I just simply do.

I love you, Babe!

You will always be the biggest part of me.